Just to say I did it.

So, for those of you who know me well enough, I am an aspiring musician. I've never thought to make it my whole world. I'm curently studying and applying to do a Sociology and Criminology degree at univeristy. So I have some back up's. But I sometime's feel I won't even get the chance to say I have tried it. As is seen in a recent blog I did start a little something with a few friends. However, due to other commitments we barely ever get time to practice. With one we hardly get together, and with the other we never get together.

Many of my friends are in bands. But also most of my friends don't have the same interest in the music I listen to, obviously making it hard to get the right sound out of whatever it is we play due to different styles of playing, tone, etc. Most of my friends listen to Heavy Metal music: not a genre I discredit, but one that I have no real interest in listening to or playing. Lewis and Rachel, who I attempted at starting a project with, unfortunately, again, don't show as keen an interest as I do when it comes to song-writing and/or finding time to even practice. Don't get me wrong, I'm having a little bass/guitar session with Lewis tomorrow. However, it's gotten to the point where I don't feel this to be an attempt at a band anymore but just two friends jamming. This is just as fun but I get a sense of dread knowing there may be no chance of trying out my own lyrics infront of people besides those who attend my college going to the annual Xmas talent show. Of course, it's of no fault of Lewis or Rachel's by any standard. I guess it's all just a matter of interest.

I'm even considering using the year after I finsish University to try and find a career in music. Today I was walking down the road, going to meet my good friend Megan, and listening to Alkaline Trio's 'This Could Be Love' from their fourth studio album 'Good Mourning'. And as they blasted out that beautifully un-holy "This could be love. Love for fire", I couldn't help but get that tight feeling in my gut that I think we all do when listening to a bloody good classic. But what also sprung to mind was both times I have seen Alkaline Trio in thier own gig. And both times when that lyric was sung by the crooning Matt Skiba, a good couple thousand people would repeat. Over and over and over and over.

So there I am. Walking down the street. Listening to Alkaline Trio. Taking a detour down memory lane. And I can't help but imagine how amazing it would be to have a couple thousand people scream out your own lyrics that you probably wrote in your living-room. And I want that. That tight feeling was probabaly jealousy. I want to be in a Punk Rock band like all my favourite bands: Alkaline Trio, Placebo, Hot Water Music, The Lawrence Arms, The Damned, The Gaslight Anthem, NOFX, Rancid.

Even If it goes nowhere. If my lyrics and songs fall flat on thier face. If I'm pelted off stage with whatever people can get thier hands on. Just to say I did when I'm 40, 50, etc. That would be bloody brilliant.